Becoming Worthy – and Gently Healing PTSD

Summary

Joined army straight out of high school in 2002, deployed multiple times starting as Human Resources, reclassed to infantry, all way up to sniper in 82nd and Special Forces. From those military experiences dealt with lot of PTSD, feeling unworthiness, didn't care about anything, felt deserved to be punished for things that happened in past, hard to explain how difficult life is when can barely get out of bed, can't take care of child you're parent of because all energy taken just trying to move or do anything, down all time, depressed, angry, don't even know why anymore. Daughter and ex-wife told him "hey Dad they're healing PTSD," he said "no way that's unhealable" because been through everything Army and VA offered, taken medication, nothing worked, when diagnosed they said "there's no cure for this." Came to event as empty cup, never studied anything, did exactly what Dr. Joe says, wasn't expecting anything, saw videos of people in military getting healed and thought "if they can do it I can do it too." Can breathe again, feels like everything's lifted off shoulders, able to see life and love for first time ever. What he feels now is love again, instead of unworthiness feels worthy ("I am worthy to be happy, worthy to live, worthy"), feels happy, feels joy, excited to live, excited to get out of bed now and do stuff, just such great feeling.