Stories of Transformation - Mary

Summary

Diagnosed with endometriosis in the late 1990s causing severe pain during intercourse (making sex "no fun" with her approach being "quick, let's go, are you done?"), she attended the Portland event thinking her physical condition wasn't "good enough" compared to people in wheelchairs or with cancer, so she decided not to try to be healed for it. During the coherence healing meditation, having never had any mystical experiences the first four days, everything came to her as she felt electrocuted with power in her hands, saw fire, and realized she put more trust and intention into healing the other person than she ever put into herself. With eyes closed but feeling they were open, she saw women in white tunics floating around her (wondering if they were ghosts but realizing they were angels), and simultaneously experienced both giving birth and being her mother, and her son being born and being herself, pushing and crying while feeling something with "nails doing this" coming out of her body that literally ripped her apart. She felt an unconditional love she'd never experienced before (thinking "that must be the god everybody talks about"), and when she got back, her roommate suggested maybe she got healed. Testing it with her husband without using any of the thousands of lotions or cannabis she normally needed, sex for the first time had no memory of pain and flowed naturally without fear. Since July 2019, she's discovered total awareness of the body-emotion connection - when triggered by "teachers" (people who trigger her) she can feel her endometriosis contracting in real-time, learning to let go and understanding everything physical is a manifestation of emotions, now knowing she has power to control symptoms even though it's not totally cured, with the awareness itself helping her go farther in healing and being more present with her husband (now meditating together before lovemaking).