She Felt Worthy of Love – and Overcame Anorexia

Summary

About 11 years ago she started severely restricting food intake, obsessing about exercising and losing weight, peaking during a summer break when she was diagnosed with severe anorexia nervosa weighing less than 30 kilos (about 28 kilos) with all body parts severely damaged. She would wash one apple 10+ times fearing calories from touching other food (like if it touched a donut in the supermarket), weigh it multiple times to ensure exactly 60 calories, cry and have panic attacks while eating it, then only consume nutritional supplements (for cancer patients) the rest of the day because even tea felt like food with calories. She was disgusted by every body part, compared herself to everyone (seeing them all as slimmer in her mind), and it drove her crazy daily - she didn't want to heal and asked her mother if the work would heal her (her mother lied and said no, knowing it would). Her mother discovered Dr. Joe's work through a quantum scientist video explaining his work, they read all the books and listened to everything available. While practicing meditations for abundance and future opportunities (starting March last year), she noticed feeling better about eating, seeing herself in the mirror, and enjoying life, though a loud possessed-demon-like anorexic voice kept getting louder during meditations which she kept breaking and letting go. The turning point was walking in Hyde Park realizing she'd stopped enjoying life but started enjoying preparing and eating food at home (something never done before), though curtains stayed shut fearing neighbors or birds seeing her eat. When her mom suggested a restaurant, she hesitated but said yes - eating a cheese-filled pastry there was literally the best day of her life. From that summer moment it kept improving - now she can't believe the transformation, it feels like a different person and life, she's not that person anymore, the breath eliminated survival emotions, meditations connected her with Divine pure love which eliminated hatred, and she now loves life and herself immensely (loving life first, then herself).