Stories of Transformation - Steve

Summary

On the first day during the heart meditation, this person entered a theta state appearing in a half-dream, half-awake condition and found themselves surrounded by luminescent beings of all ages, genders, colors, and cultures holding them up with their hands in an incredibly loving space, looking into people's glowing eyes and feeling immense love before realizing everyone was looking at them because it was a funeral - their own funeral. The experience revealed how throughout their life they had separated themselves from people, keeping everyone at arm's distance by feeling either superior or inferior to others but never matching people directly heart-to-heart person-to-person, and they came to understand that the guy who died was not really them but the part of themselves that separates, while their true self remained alive. They felt deep commitment to be more present and connect with people heart-to-heart, and the next morning when Dr. Joe said "something in you that's not love needs to die," they wept with floods of emotion that were neither sadness nor joy but a sweeping wave that left them shaky, knowing they need to integrate this realization into their life and looking forward to living it with tears continuing throughout the entire workshop experience.